lots' been going on, or soon will be.

I'm still working on getting insurance. The only reason why it hasn't happened yet, is because the Dept. Of human services is the worse place ever, and don't give a flying ship about the people they are getting paid to help. Well only in my case... I've gone through three different case workers, and everytime I call them, this means me dialing the number and dialing their ext. then waiting for them to pickup... they don't. Not fucking once. I'm calling the family service center again, which means waiting more than 20 mins to get ahold of a person who will tell you, "oh I will email your case worker, blahblahblah blah"

Exciting, whoo. I love sitting here with no insurance worrying about my child, hoping it doesn't have down syndrome, or some other problem that we won't get to know about until it's born and still won't have insurance. Fuck, I'm 24 weeks now, and I still haven't been to the doctor in almost 9 weeks. this is fucking retarded. I can't afford the co pay for the ultrasound I can afford the 15 dollars for every visit, but the tests and other such things, that they later charge you for, drives me crazy.

I don't have my Mother, so I'm trying to be patient and uncrazy around Jake's family, but it's hard.

I don't know where else to turn to to get help from. I'm pretty sure I'm going to email the Gov. Bredesen, because he's the one who LOVES tenncare and crap like that. but I'm not getting help. Pregnant ladies, and Children under the age of 19 are the most important people according to Tenncare. I already feel unimportant as it is. I don't want to fill that fucking useless paper work out again. so I'm going to make sure to keep on this, no matter how long it takes. If I get ahold of them again when my papers have expired again, I'm going to fucking complain up the wall to whoever it is that takes complaints about this.

If you know where I should turn, please tell me. I've emailed the head of DHS, and now I'm waiting, I suppose I just have a problem with thinkng everyting has to be done now. I suppose when it's most conveinent to me. Which is rude.

I just want it all to work out, so I can get a fucking ultrasound.

This hold music is pissing the shit out of me. and they keep playing the stupid choices from the beginning. NO BITCH< I CHOSE THIS ONE, QUIT TALKING YOU AUTOMATIC BITCH.

fuck, I'm losing my sanity, my patience, and my happiness. I need to eat soon. hah.


BTW what I wanted to talk about anyways... My Friend Brittany Crass gave birth to her little boy yesterday. I cried, I laughed, and I got to hold him. I'm so happy for Brittany and Alan. Logan Michael Hudson is 6lbs 2ozs, and 20 inches. he's like a little bug. I love him already.

I hope and wish her the best of luck.

18 mins so far holding. Fucking flute music. it's the same thing over and over again. play some rock and roll or something. I honestly only need to talk to them for less than 10 mins this is stupid as fuck.

It's going to take me a lifetime to just tell them my 5 mins problem. and hopefully 5 mins for them to FIX my problem.

Jake got more work at the warehouse, he's been stressed about that.

Jake's doing well. thought I should update you guys on him. He's doing great, he's excited and trying to support my every emotion at these times. and he's being my back bone. I love him. I'm glad we made it through all my stupid drama. I'm just a little over my own head at the moment. I don't know how I would be without him. He's trying to lose weight, I suppose that's good. I just don't like it. I like him being my chubby bunny. he's not even fat. he' sjust burly. haha.

NO I AM NOT AN OUT OF STATE REGISTRY. FUCK. SHUT UP.

God Damn, my Baby is kicking more and more. I should eat. I barely ate yesterday, Jake bought McDonalds and that made me happy. haha. we barely eat fast food. and it made me happy happy.

it's taken me 25 mins to write this Journal.. and also being on hold. Fuck, who would buy a bazooka at this point?

please continue to hold, your call will be taken by the next available counseler. blah blah.

damn when I was working at Borders we tried not to let our people not hold for longer than 25 mins. You know how angry people were when we finally picked up? Damn, They need to tell the customers to shorten the talking, or they need to speed up the help.

Yngwie's keeping my feet warm. it's freezing in here.

my neck hurts, I've been holding the phone with my head and neck this whole time. GOSH.

JAke will be home in two hours, yay, I can cry to him... I need to fucking cry.

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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Got ahold of the family service center finally! And I got a new appointment for this Thursday at 8:30am. It's an ACTUAL phone interview. Apparently when I filed for a phone interview they didn't make it a PHONE interview like I requested. and when I called my case worker to confirm the fact it was a phone interview, he didn't call back. Shitty American service is all I can say. Fucking southerners. They don't give a shit about you. and if I'm wrong they don't care enough to point out the mistake, nice huh?

Well whatever I have an actual appointment and it's been confirmed, so There. BAH! I beat the twits who do this shit, and I should be fine for next week to get insurance. God, I'm tired of being a bitch, I just want to be a happy preggo mommy. and that's it.

I'll post some pictures of halloween and Logan. If I can find a few good photos. lol Jake was a fucking nerd. haha


alright.. I knew I would leave you with good news.


Bye!